Last night I was looking through some screenshots of my old work, mostly graphics demos written in QuickBASIC, and I ended up reading my old blog. ‘Old’ as in before they were called ‘blogs’. And I couldn’t help but notice how self-destructive I was. I don’t know how many times I wrote “I need to get around to doing some real coding in C++”.
You see, I started programming in QB. I used it a lot, doing things no one had done in QB before. I knew that it’s basically a toy language, but I kept using it, even during college. I knew I needed real experience, outside of class, to get a job, but I never went for it.
And so last night I’m thinking “what a loser I was”. All I had to do was apply myself.
But eventually I realized I haven’t really changed much. I have a job and experience now, but I’m still not doing what it takes to actually “make it”.
That’s why I started this blog - to do something. Unlike all the other times when I started because I thought I had someting to say. This time I thought, “I’ll start writing and coding and putting myself out there and people will come back with feedback”. Any feedback would be nice, as long as I can use it to better myself and further my work.
So that’s really all I have today. At least by aknowledging that I have nothing, I’m putting something out there.